My Agnostic Beliefs vs well...not wanting to go to hell!!

Hey fellow bloggers,

Well what better way to start my very first blog than talking about my religion. I heard some where that as long as there is religion there will be war. Seems true enough to me. I was raised in a Christian home but turned my self into an agnostic.

I just recently learned that I’m classified as an agnostic after I googled "what is a person who doesn’t believe in "god" yet doesn’t completely rule out that there isn’t one?" I got "Agnostic".

I've never really thought about religion before. When some one asked I always rushed to say Christian. No ifs, ands, or buts. Things changed about my junior year in high school. I was an avid member of Fellowship of Christian Athletes (FCA). I went to meetings my senior year but still I was conflicted. I stopped going to church when I was younger but I still believed in god.

The thing that had me stumped was how naive people are. As a race of human beings you would think that we'd have more common sense. I mean come on...some things just don’t add up. My greatest doubts or my version of proof comes from Greek Mythology.

Okay, I'm not saying that I believe in the whole several gods deciding who should be blessed but it’s their stories that prove my point. In this day and age a lot of people critic those who believed in that type of stuff and call them ignorant. If we take a minute and really look at how ridiculous Greek stories are then compare them to the bible then they are one in the same. A lot of the things that happened in Greek Mythology are very similar to those in the bible with minimal changes like names, era, and the hierarchy of the character.

In Hercules' story he has to retrieve Hera's forbidden fruit in an attempt to complete his 12 labors. (For those who are not clued in to this story, essentially Hercules is hated by his fathers wife so much that she sends him grief to kill his own family on earth, in that time to redeem himself he has to do 12 labors to be forgiven) This is directly linked to the forbidden fruit in the bible's story of Adam and Eve. Another relation between the two is that Hercules was the son of the god of gods like Jesus is said to be the son of god in Christianity. More interesting than that is that when Hercules finished his 12 labors he didn’t feel the guilt lift so he did the only possible thing. He killed himself for his sins, thus making him fully immortal and allowed him to go to Olympus with his father. This story ringing any bells? The only slight change is that Jesus died for our sins (hypothetically).

The two "Gods" even share a similarity. Zeus was said to change forms to get women pregnant. It is never said if the Christian god is a spirit or what ever but he technically did the same thing for Mary.

My notion is that if people could come up with stories like Hercules having to hold the entire world over his head then how can I honestly believe that some guy turned water to wine or that there is a god? My fear of going to hell, if there is one, is the only thing that stops me from claiming atheism.

Hell! My next specimen of proof. In the time of Greek gods-Hades was the ruler of the under world. Taturus is what we now perceive is hell but still it was a place no one wanted to go. There are numerous stories of people trying to escape it even to this day. No one wants to die. Tarturus was hell hell like burning people doing tasks that never see and end and the underworld was more of a big room where the dead roamed. Just to clarify.

My point is that maybe, possibly, people created a story that gave people hope of being happy someday. All it would take is some one to say "if you pray to them and believe when you do die you'll go to heaven where the women out number the men and everyone is happy" That's not very far fetched and could have happened. Who am I to know whether or not if it's true? I really don't know so I can’t make a rational decision to say that that he is real.

Often in those times they looked to inhumane reasons to rationalize natural disasters. Like the fight where Zeus battled Kronos, his father, for Olympia. There have been studies that prove that around the time of that myth a real life volcano erupted which produced roughly 40 Hiroshima’s. We as a people often try to explain things by placing blame on the godly. It’s just who we are. I'm not as naive though. I recognize that things happen in the world and that's that.

A whole other notion to ponder is the subject of chance. If there is a god who is to say that Christ’s god is the right one. I would be leaving my after life up to chances so I would rather bow out than place myself in the line of fire. Of all the religions in the world who’s to say which one is truly the right one?
Then the fact that it's the cause of maybe 85percent of all wars. People fight, kill, and die for something that is not proved 100percent to be true. I understand bad things happening because how else would the world go on. We would over populate if no one ever died. I can except that but not when a man says just believe in him and he will show you.
I tried to ask questions but all I ever get is "believe with out seeing". I tried to explain this to my mother and the best I could muster was the best I could stupefy to in laymen terms. It's like me walking into a room, your holding a gun, she's on the floor dead, and you tell me that you didn’t do it. All the evidence is pointing to you. But you tell me to believe what you say is the truth without really knowing if you did it or not. I can’t just put something’s aside. I have to know or I’m not going to just believe.
You see my confliction? The dilemmas I’m faced with?